I have been trying to get to my computer to post for 3 days. Life has certainly been getting in the way.... So, here is a recap of my first three days.
Sunday:
Weighed in. Also measured everything that I always measure when I am freshly re-embarking on a fitness regimen, and at regular intervals during that time. I find measurements to be highly important on those weeks where weight loss may be low, but the tape measure may still show positive change, even when it is minimal. My numbers weren't as good in a couple of areas compared to last time I measured, in January, but that was after about 3 weeks of the C25K program I just restarted... Ah yes, after measurements I went to the gym. A new gym actually. I already belong to 24 hour fitness but most of the time they are ridiculously mobbed. I was told about a gym close to my job that is brand new and only $10 a month with no commitment. the equipment is brand new and at 10am on a Sunday I was one of 3 people on the two long rows of treadmills. I made it through day one of C25K, probably went a total of 2 miles in 30 minutes with my walking rate at 3.6mph and running at 5mph. After I finished my walk/run I moved on to the weight machines. I worked abs/back (an every time at the gym thing) and then worked my arms/shoulders, for a total of about 45 minutes.
Monday:
Weighed myself as I do every day. I know, I know, it's bad practice: I expect to see ups and downs with an overall trend in one direction or another, or as I have been for the past couple of months going up and down the same 10 pounds. I do it more to watch my hydration level than to monitor my daily weight per se. I am an RN and the quickest indicator of dehydration is weight. My eating has not changed significantly as of yet in the challenge the way my exercise has so I expected to see myself around the same as the day before, but I was higher. I was also really really sore. Most specifically the front of my thighs were hurting with every step and worse with every sit down/stand up. My original plan had been to go to the gym, but I decided to forgo that for a 5 mile bike ride after work. By the time work got out my legs hurt worse, my boyfriend asked me to go for a walk and I went to get some exercise and after a couple of miles had mostly talked myself out of the idea of riding my bike 5 miles.... Well, the bf fell asleep after the walk due to allergy crisis and I suddenly felt motivated to go for that bike ride, which I did and it felt pretty good.
Today:
Well another morning on the scale another even higher number! Gah! well, I know my sodium intake has been a bit high, and hmmm I was really moody at the end of last week...and it is the start of the month.... Well hello PMS, I wasn't thinking about you: I have an IUD and don't get a period and only sporadically have bad bouts of PMS even still- and suddenly the past week or so is feeling that way to me. My emotions have been all over the place. I have cried more than once. I feel a little better about all of that now, if I am right in a few days this bloated acky feeling will pass as will the weight that has suddenly jumped onto me.
My plan had been to go to the gym this morning, but I hurt worse this morning than yesterday morning and realized that a day of rest for my poor muscles would probably be a not bad idea if I wanted to avoid injury or burnout. So I slept in a little, and then went to work and when I came home the bf and I ended up going for another 2 mile walk. It hurt a lot at first, then eased up, then hurt more again.
So, of course, the plan for tomorrow is to hit the gym. Depending on whether I can get to bed at a decent time or not will tell if I go before or after work.
My water consumption has been better than usual; I have been staying around a hundred ounces a day. So I am going about 3/4 as far as my goals: it's Tuesday and I have ridden my bike 5 of 15 miles; I have walked 4 miles; ran/walked 2 miles completing day 1 of my C25K; I have drank almost 300 ounces of water; and I have gained weight- but that's only temporary. So I am going to try and not be a perfectionist about things and sabotage myself....by getting upset about not getting back to the gym yet. I have exercised more than I did last in the past several weeks and that counts for something, right?
My eating is far from perfect, but I will give that a few days before I try to make more changes to my lifestyle. Sometimes too much is too much - and that goes for change too. Even when it is positive change. After 3 years on this journey I am still telling myself- slow and steady wins the race.
Melissa
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
And so it begins...again
My name is Melissa; and this blog is to record my continuing weight loss/self improvement journey.
I am 35 years old, and my whole entire life I have been fat. Never got to shop in "normal stores," never felt comfortable in my own skin.... I've been in the two hundreds since maybe 6th grade or so? It's been so long I can't remember.
In May 2008 I had several major turning points occur almost simultaneously: I graduated nursing school, my husband of almost 6 years moved out (3000 miles away pending our divorce- a good thing mind you I was glad to be moving on), and I went on the last diet I will ever go on. For a couple of weeks I went on the Medi-fast diet at home- kinda at least. I was so miserable that I threw out what I had left and decided that what I needed to do was change my complete diet- lifestyle change like everyone always says, you know? Well, I did little bits at a time small changes that I was able to stick with. I didn't deprive myself of anything, but I discovered moderation. And between that and about 4 months later after working 12 hour shifts at the hospital 3 days a week for a few months I had lost about 30 pounds. And then I would plateau; for months....I didn't worry too much because I also didn't gain. Then I would get motivated and lose another 20-25 pounds and then stall again.
At this point I have lost about 70 pounds from my weight that May of 2008; but for a couple of months I have been going up and down the same ten pounds. I have also gone from a size 24-26 and 2-3x top to size 14 pants and regular large size tops. My new favorite place to shop is Old Navy because they have great sales! LOL And for the very first time in my life I can walk into a store and pick out clothes and bring them home and they actually fit.
But, the truth is that I still have about 70 pounds until I reach what doctors would consider my ideal weight. Being that I have never in my whole life been at a healthy or ideal weight I have no clue what my real goal weight will end up being. Once i thought that I might be lucky to get down to a size 10 or 12.... and I am on the cusp of those numbers now!
In recent weeks I had finally broken down and joined twitter and discovered something I hadn't been expecting. A new source of information, encouragement, community, and challenge. I have been moved and felt "normalized" by reading other people's blogs who have struggled with many of the same issues that I have. It has been a relief to see many of my own emotional, exercise, and food issues spoken about by so many people.
I also found the KICK MY ASS super challenge. #KMASC Starting May 1 and ending August 7 being run by @dolifedifferent. I had to come up with goals for myself for the challenge.
My goals for the 14 weeks are:
1. Lose 30 pounds.
2. Restart and complete C25K.
3. Ride my bike at least 15 miles per week.
4. Drink water every day (ounces based on weight).
So Sunday is the big weigh in day. I'm excited and looking forward to getting started and working hard towards reaching my goals!
Melissa
I am 35 years old, and my whole entire life I have been fat. Never got to shop in "normal stores," never felt comfortable in my own skin.... I've been in the two hundreds since maybe 6th grade or so? It's been so long I can't remember.
In May 2008 I had several major turning points occur almost simultaneously: I graduated nursing school, my husband of almost 6 years moved out (3000 miles away pending our divorce- a good thing mind you I was glad to be moving on), and I went on the last diet I will ever go on. For a couple of weeks I went on the Medi-fast diet at home- kinda at least. I was so miserable that I threw out what I had left and decided that what I needed to do was change my complete diet- lifestyle change like everyone always says, you know? Well, I did little bits at a time small changes that I was able to stick with. I didn't deprive myself of anything, but I discovered moderation. And between that and about 4 months later after working 12 hour shifts at the hospital 3 days a week for a few months I had lost about 30 pounds. And then I would plateau; for months....I didn't worry too much because I also didn't gain. Then I would get motivated and lose another 20-25 pounds and then stall again.
At this point I have lost about 70 pounds from my weight that May of 2008; but for a couple of months I have been going up and down the same ten pounds. I have also gone from a size 24-26 and 2-3x top to size 14 pants and regular large size tops. My new favorite place to shop is Old Navy because they have great sales! LOL And for the very first time in my life I can walk into a store and pick out clothes and bring them home and they actually fit.
But, the truth is that I still have about 70 pounds until I reach what doctors would consider my ideal weight. Being that I have never in my whole life been at a healthy or ideal weight I have no clue what my real goal weight will end up being. Once i thought that I might be lucky to get down to a size 10 or 12.... and I am on the cusp of those numbers now!
In recent weeks I had finally broken down and joined twitter and discovered something I hadn't been expecting. A new source of information, encouragement, community, and challenge. I have been moved and felt "normalized" by reading other people's blogs who have struggled with many of the same issues that I have. It has been a relief to see many of my own emotional, exercise, and food issues spoken about by so many people.
I also found the KICK MY ASS super challenge. #KMASC Starting May 1 and ending August 7 being run by @dolifedifferent. I had to come up with goals for myself for the challenge.
My goals for the 14 weeks are:
1. Lose 30 pounds.
2. Restart and complete C25K.
3. Ride my bike at least 15 miles per week.
4. Drink water every day (ounces based on weight).
So Sunday is the big weigh in day. I'm excited and looking forward to getting started and working hard towards reaching my goals!
Melissa
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